| | Wow, it's been five months since I've updated this web journal. Yeah, I started an advance degree program and a new job last August that pretty much wiped out my desire to post anything beyond facebook status updates. The new program is no longer new, but it is no less taxing. A funny thing has happened in the interim that I would have never expected: I actually made a friend. I know that there are plenty of people that count me as a friend, but there are not that many people that get beyond acquaintanceship with me. Perhaps it is all my fault. I've learned that I have a powerful ability to keep people at arm's length with a pseudo-transparency that effectively truncates the growing edges of new relationships. It took finding this new friend recently to expose that tendency in myself to the extent that I can see it, and rehabilitate that part of me that sees every person as an opportunity for ministry instead of an opportunity for love and friendship to develop. My friend has helped me to do just that; namely, try to realign my expectations of people to include a wider variety of humanity under my umbrella of camaraderie and mutual care. Not everything is about what people need from me. It is possible that sometimes a person just wants ME, and not what I can do for them. That is both refreshing and beautiful. Tonight i am thanking God for a friend. God is the Father of Lights and gives good gifts; this time it was the gift of a person that loves me for me. I am humbled and grateful.
|
| | Posted 2/17/2010 7:53 PM - 29 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
Give eProps or Post a Comment |
